The fall semester is over and my lowest grade was a C+ which I was really upset about for a lot of different reasons but I won’t go into it , because there is nothing I can do about it except just move on and take it for what it is. So far in college I hold a 3.45 GPA which I am proud of, but I know I can do better, so here is to trying harder and studying more to learn as much as I can while I am at Mason. In my English 302 class one of my professor’s last comments was very encouraging to me. He said “You’re a good writer, and you’ve been a very good student. Keep writing! Keep exploring! And good luck.” From reading my blog you would probably disagree, because of my many grammatical and spelling mistakes. I agree, I do have grammatical issues and my typing skills are not the best, but part of the reason I write a blog is to try to improve my writing and really expand my writing ability. I will keep my professor’s words to heart and just keep reaching for what is just out of my reach at the moment.
I am glad I get a chance to relax for a few days before I go back into practice/work mode to prepare for the spring semester. I am currently at home curled up in my bed surrounded by a mess of bags, ripped wrapping paper, tape, bows, and labels. The remenants of a women obsessively wrapping as many presents as she could before Christmas Eve comes to a close. As I was wrapping presents sitting in my sister’s old room, now my room, I began to really miss her. Before I knew it I was crying. This will be my first Christmas without her, twenty years together and now she has moved out to live her life. If you know my sister or have met her she is the almost complete opposite of me in looks and personality. You can imagine the fights we had growing up but whenever I needed her she was there being the protective big sister. I am proud of her and proud to call her my big sister. You don’t know what you have until its gone and even though its a cheesy saying its true and tomorrow I will wake up and celebrate Christmas for the first time without her here to smile and laugh at me and with me. I will say I am glad she is happy and so happy to see her smile and have joy in her life, she deserves it.
As Christmas creeps closer and closer I am filled with gratitude and thanks for everything and everyone in my life. My amazing family who have always been there for me and my friends. I wouldn’t be who I am today without them. I hold all of my friends close to my heart and think about them everyday. It doesn’t matter to me how far away they are….Wiscounsin, Texas, Pennsylvania, Japan their faces and smiles are sketched into my heart and my memory, times of sorrow and times of happiness, each one is important and helped me become who I am today. I also thought about Sean as I was wrapping presents as well because not only are we taking our first big trip together to Boston, the day after christmas, but we have been together for over six months. I don’t know how I was so lucky to find him, but I am so thankful for everything I have learned from him and the time we have spent together. He means the world to me and I look forward to a future of creating memories together and learning more from one another.
As 2009 is coming to a close I think to myself about how rough the year started and beautiful it has turned out in the end. I have learned so much this year and I look forward to 2010 and all the new things I will learn and see. I think about my sister Brandy and my little nephew Austyn who will be one in January, how time has flown and how he has grown. I love them both so much and I hope to be there to help him grow and learn through his happy times and sad ones as any good aunt would do. This has become quite a reflective and kind of corny thoughtful post, but oh well it is what is on my mind. Merry Christmas everyone! Cherish those you love and hold onto them as long as you can, because you never know what the new year will bring.
Thinking about you Mr. and Mrs. Hair and praying for Ben may he rest in peace always <3 you will see him again day I know it.
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This is my winter song to you
the storm is coming soon
It rolls in from the sea
My voice, a beacon in the night
My words will be your light
to carry you to me
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love…
They say things just cannot grow
beneaththe winter snow
Or so I have been told
They say we’re barried far
Just like a distant star
I can nott hold
Is love alaive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
This is my winter song
December never felt so wrong
‘Cause you’re not where you belong
Inside my arms
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I still believe in summer days
The seasons always change
And life will find a way
I’ll be your harvester of light
And send it out tonight
So we can start again
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
Is love alive?
This is my winter song
December never felt so wrong
Cause your not where you belong
Inside my arms
This si my winter song to you
The storm is coming soon
It rolls in from the sea
My love, a beacon in the night
My words will be your light
To carry you to me
Is love alive?(x16)♫
Winter Song by Sara Bareilles and Ingrid Michaelson
